A Light in a Dark Room

Thank you everyone for your kind words. This past week has been difficult. My concussion symptoms aren't letting up quite yet. I have also noticed that my eyes can't adjust to light very well. They will dilate but then try to adjust which in turn gives me headaches. It scared me when I first saw it, it was really creepy. On top of that, Ava almost hit me in the head (which could have made things much worse), school gives me a big headache and painful eyes (even while sitting there), and I wish it was Summer again... Mainly I just want my concussion to heal, I read it could take up to 4 weeks to heal! And at this point I could actually see that happening...

I went out to the barn yesterday. I don't quite trust myself driving yet so I had my mom go with me just in case. I wasn't there long. I grabbed Ava, still agitated with her and took her to the round pen (finally no one was using it). I worked her hard. Since I won't ride for a while lunging will have to be her workout. After she was all sweaty I took her into the arena and worked on some desensitization with a plastic bag. Luckily my BO wasn't there and I could do almost anything I wanted. Ava did pretty good. She is still not very relaxed but it was better today.

I also learned that some of the mare's at the barn are in heat; and I'm thinking that Ava is as well. I always forget she can get really moody when she goes into heat. So, that could be another reason she was acting horrible the other day. Although the main reason she was being horrible is that there was a rider in the outdoor arena and she couldn't see much besides the bobbing of the riders head, so I know that weirded her out. So, overall Ava did fine, I did my best to push her without pushing myself and in return I think it helped.

There may be hope for the little white mare.